When Doves Cry...

The Year in Review!

2011-12-21T09:08:00.000-08:00

I know, I haven't been around for a while but in 2012, it's going to be so different! I plan on blogging on everything!! I would like to take this opening to tell you what I'm doing, what I have coming etc. But first, I'd like to wish you all a happy holiday season. Be safe. Stay warm and see you in 2012! I will also be trying to book Blog tour dates with other authors so I will post that once I have somewhere set up.

RE-Releases:
I have released Broken Wings and Destiny's Cowboy! They have stunning covers. One was made by me (Broken Wings) and the other by my cover Guru! I had to do some re-work on BROKEN WINGS and DESTINIES COWBOY and once those were done, I have them brand spanking new covers and put them out there again. They are both at Amazon for Kindle!

What I'm working on:

Firstly, I am working on a title called SARANHAE. It takes place in South Korea (Seoul and Chuncheon). It is Interracial about a woman who, as a child she was a military brat. Her mom died and her father moves them to South Korea where he was stationed. At about fifteen her father realized she was getting closed to a South Korean boy, flipped a lid and shipped her to live with her Aunt in Canada. Now she's grown up and well, relationships haven't been the best. She now returnes to South Korea to find this boy, now a hot, older man to see if she can rekindle something with him.

I am working exclusively on this one because it is for a series one of my publishing houses is developing.

What's Here:

The SHADOWCAT Series is complete! Re's Redemption was released Halloween Day at Devine Destinies! If you haven't read Re's Curse (book 1)- you can find it as well at Devine Destinies.

What is Coming:

What you Do to Me This story is hotter than I usually write but it was called for. I mean look at the title! I don't have a cover for it yet because Devine Destinies, just contracted it, but I am going to make sure they make me something REALLY hot for it *giggles* I am so excited. Here's the blurb. Kelin Chase is educated and ready to face the working world. When she accepts a nanny job with Henry Quartermaine, it was only for the money. Then she meets little Emily-May and she falls hard for the child. But soon things happen and she has to stand toe to toe with one with Henry Quartermaine.

Having Kelin stand up to him both angered Henry Quartermaine and turned him on. His body burns for her in ways he couldn't understand but yearned to explore. But how can he get past Kelin's dislike for most of his family? How can he prove to her the Quartermaine's aren't evil monsters and that she should stay with him--not only as a nanny, but forever?

Hugs,
Kadian (Kendra)

The hell is going on?

2011-07-23T05:24:00.000-07:00

This is one of those days I am hoping will end well. You know the kind when you wake up and just wonder why in the hell you’re up? Then you remember…shit! You have to go to work on a weekend for seven hours. So I wake up right, and I dragged my ass out of bed, took a shower, then got dressed. I crawled back into bed. I snoozed for about ten minutes then got up, made my bed and left the house. I was actually way ahead of schedule. It started to go bad when I forgot to grab my bus pass and had to run back up the stairs to get it. By the time I was out the door again, I was just on time. At seven oh two I was at the bus stop, waiting for the bus. One bus passed me at seven fifteen but that wasn’t my bus. At seven twenty I began worrying and by the time seven twenty rolled around I was beginning to make alternate plans inside my head.

Finally at seven twenty three two bus turned the corner. I figured, I may just be able to make it to work on time as is—I wouldn’t be able to stop for snacks but I can make it. So the first bus wasn’t mine but the one behind it was. The one behind the wrong bus slowed down, to get around the first bus and sped off down the street. I was so MAD…I was standing there, for about half an hour and this ass just drove right by! I could feel my heart to racing, and my whole body went cold as I curled my first and wanted to scream but couldn’t. I watched the bus get smaller in the distance before finally pulling it together and glancing down at my cell phone that was flashing seven thirty back at me. I stood there, just shaking wondering what I was going to do now.

Taking a breath, I called my mom. She was still in bed because she worked all week and I am a proud supporter of her sleep but I had no choice. The moment she heard my voice she knew something was wrong. The flood gates opened then I cried telling her the bus was late and didn’t even stop! She, being mom, said she would come get me.

Why did I cry? I’m the kind of person is when I get really angry, I still don’t want to hurt anyone so I turn my anger into crying. It gets really bad when I am helpless in the thing that made me so incensed in the first place. And trust me…all I wanted to do then was find the jerk driving that bus and drop kick him into the middle of the next millennium. So anyways, my mom came and rescued me—dropping me off at work with ten minutes to spare….All that drama and it’s not even ten o’clock in the morning yet! Now…I wonder when my breaks are…my tummy is a rumbling….

Kadian

New Cover - CRUISE WITH ME!

2011-06-15T09:41:00.001-07:00

My new cover for CRUISE WITH ME coming soon to Devine Destinies LLC!!

Destiny's Cowboy is BACK!

2011-05-17T08:49:00.000-07:00

A sexier new cover done by Insatiable Fantasies Designs, DESTINY'S COWBOY is now available on Amazon Kindle!

Who's Watching You? See No Evil is HERE!

2011-02-04T20:55:00.000-08:00

SEE NO EVIL

Kendra Mei Chailyn

Saying that Preity Roshan's life has been hell would be the understatement of the year. When she was young she lost her dad and then soon afterward she lost her mom. She moves to a small town just on the outskirts of Edison City and finally her life is taking off...that is until she witnesses something that threatens to destroy her.

Luke Sinclair has been having a bad feeling, and whenever the Edison City cop gets this feeling something bad happens. Then a hysterical woman seeks him out to help find her best friend who has gone missing. Now Luke is shoved into the path of a serial killer who has his eyes set on Preity and if he gets the chance, will take Luke as collateral damage.

http://www.museithotpublishing.com/

NOW AVAILABLE AT MUSEITHOT PUBLISHING

R.I.P Sgt Ryan Russell

2011-01-18T09:25:00.000-08:00

This is the second time I've had to post about a cop being killed in the line of duty. And once again my heart is broken. Sgt. Russel was an eleven year vetran of the OPP and was killed in a rather senseless way. He left behind his wife and his baby. Normally I would go on and on about how senseless this is and how we're supposed to love and take care of one another but it seems that is a waste of time.

Sgt. Russell did NOT deserve to die. He was a good man--everyone who said anything about him had nothing sad or bad to say about him. Every picture showed his smile, his blue eyes dancing. And I cannot begin to imagine how heart broken his wife is. What will she tell their son?

I have one suggestion. Tell him how loving his father was. That his father was a great cop who always had a helping hand. Tell him, if he doesn't believe look at everyone who showed up to show their love and respect for one man--he was charged in protecting us, and died doing it.

RIP SGT Russell...if you're looking down you see just how much you are missed.

See No Evil Trailer

2011-01-16T10:16:00.000-08:00

See No Evil has been edited and I survived it!! (I know being highly dramatic but I don't like edits much. A friend says it gives him heart palpitations to think of editing but it just makes me want to cry). This means it will make release day for Feburary 1, 2011!! How cool is that? My first ever murder mystery dun dun dunnnnnnnn! Here's the trailer ...well trailer # 1 at any rate. I want a truly creepy one made and will look into that but here goes.....this story is coming to MuseItHot Publishing!

The Year so Far...

2011-01-10T08:16:00.000-08:00

Hello all,

Well the year so far is SLOW to say the least. I have one release coming up really fast in February that just went through line edits. I know, my most hated part of the writing process lol. But it comes with the territory. SEE NO EVIL may be part of a series. I am not all together sure yet. I am not very disciplined when it comes to writing series so I probably shouldn't even put that out there. But I loved the guys in the first story so much I may consider it...after all Keegan is SWAT and I can't be a romance writer and not do a SWAT officer.

The beautiful cover was done my Ms.Delilah over at MuseItHot Publishing and I absolutely ADORE it! That's me gushing!!

At the moment, I am working on a second story to DANCE WITH ME. This one has Andrea's brother Maverick and Harmon's friend Lisa Brickman. I loved the first story so much that I had to write Lisa's story--besides I hinted at a bad past and I couldn't possibly tease you with it and not write it, right? So right now I'm debating the title...one is HERE and NOW and the second one is LOVE DONT LIVE HERE ANY MORE. I am not sure which one I will use but I figure once the story is finished I will hopefully have it figured out. I am also hoping to finish PURPLE'S TEARDROPS and then I can move on to something else. But those two are the ones I really want to finish this year. LOVE REIGN (I've gotten emails about) was offered a contract but with conditions. There are some stuff I need to work out with it but haven't had time since I've been sick for a bit.

So the year is pretty much planned, writing wise, everything else in my life is up in the air like it always is. I just hope and pray and see where things land...

Hugs,
Kendra
(Kadian)

Home for Christmas - NEW RELEASE

2010-12-23T07:44:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone,
It's that time of year again!! Merry Christmas too all. I have been under the weather lately so I haven't really been doing much of anything but working then going home and crawling into bed. I think the flu is going around and I just HAD to catch it. *sigh* Anyways, my christmas story has been released with Devine Destinies called HOME FOR CHRISTMAS.

Here's the blurb:
In order to fulfill his father’s dying wish of him bathing in the Ganges, Raj Sohan leaves home. His wife, Melody respected that enough to let him go alone even though she always wanted to see India. When he leaves, her heart breaks though she knew he was coming back. The day he is supposed to return, Melody Sohan gets the perfect idea to welcome her man back.

It's a short one for Christmas but I hope you enjoy it anyways!

Hugs,
Kadian
Kendra Mei Chailyn

DANCE WITH ME

2010-11-15T14:25:00.000-08:00

NOW AVAILABLE AT DEVINE DESTINIES LLC!

Ex dancer, Andrea Nichols' divorce is finally finalized and to her horror she is left with a house that is falling apart, a car on the brink of death, bills piling up and ten year old twin boys. She is left feeling exposed and betrayed. With her sons away for soccer camp, Andrea reluctantly drags herself to church for answers on what to do next. When her pastor suggests putting in a good word for her with the man who runs the local youth centre Andrea is happy to be given a chance to dance again--that is until she finds out she needs to audition for the job. To make things worse, the moment she walks into the room and sees Harmon Gale--she knows she is in big trouble.

Harmon Gale, ex boxer turned teacher to troubled youth, has his hands full with running the centre and being a single father to his thirteen going on thirty year old daughter Niki. When Andrea Nichols walks into the centre for her audition, Harmon loses his heart immediately but is Andrea willing to give him a chance or will she simply keep her wall up and run?

BUY HERE

http://devinedestinies.com/

SHADOWCAT is on the prowl!!

2010-11-03T19:38:00.000-07:00

On Halloween day (I know this is late) but Shadowcat: Re's Curse is available at Devine Destinies!!

Viva Los Mineros! Viva Chile!

2010-10-13T09:14:00.000-07:00

It is always amazing when something wonderful happens in the world. Lastnight I stayed up way past my bed time to watch the first of the 33 Chilean miners (well actually there are 32 Chileans and 1 Bolivian) get rescued. Today at work, even though I don't think I am allowed, I spent my day refreshing CNN's page for a while counting down as one by one these brave men are brought home. The pathetic thing is, the people commenting on the blog at CNN keep talking about God and whether or not he exist or who's God is better and it occurred to me, no matter how long people live, they will never learn.

Today isn't about the existance of God, it is not who's god is better, who's dick is longer or who's country is bettter. It is about 33 amazing men who were trapped and almost died. It is about a country that rallied behind them and had their backs helping and protecting them. It is about human being's tolerance to overcome things that should kill them. It is REALLY pathetic when we as people, cannot simply agree to disagree and move on with it.

Why it went to religion is beyond me and I am sickened to think that there are such idiots out there. People have to learn that there is a time and place for everything and the time is not right for the place they are in.

These miners are amazing human beings who've managed to stay alive in a dark abyss for over two months. They worked together, eat together, encouraged each other, loved each other--they are the perfect example that we can live in peace with each other. It is a perfect example that we can, as human beings, tolerate, love and support each other. Because the world has open its arms to these 33 and their country...

To the people of Chile - you have given me a renewed belief, that as human beings we can support each other and be happy for each other. You've taught me personally, that love really do exist and we just have to reach out there and accept it when offered. You've taught me that there is no shame in asking for help when it is needed and accepting help even if not asked for but offered. You've taught me there is no shame in men crying and hugging each other because lets face it the world today is one, giant, homophobic mess. I have learned so much from you, and I am VERY thankful.

To the miners - your strength and faith shows me that it is possible to believe in something bigger than myself. You've shown me that I can believe in the people of my country for the most part because they will never leave me behind. You've shown me that love of work, family and friends, country and strangers really do make us stronger...welcome back to the world!

The God (which ever you believe in) bless and keep you all.

Viva Los Mineros!!
Viva Chile!
Viva world!

Hugs,
Kadian

Dance With Me -- Flails

2010-10-04T15:18:00.000-07:00

Hello all!!

October is going to be a lovely month for me! I have two titles so car slated for October. Dance With Me and Shadowcat Re's Curse. Both titled are coming to Devine Destinies LLC. I am so excited about both!! Shadowcat: Re's Curse is my first attempt at writing a paranormal and I have to say I am VERY pleased with how it turned out. It is not your typical paranormal so that goes with me trying to snap myself out of the box, so to speak.

Dance With Me, I am hoping you enjoy it and take it as I meant. It is a sweet story about loving again (I know, lately I just found myself writing second chance stories lol). It's about what to do when you play by the rules and get burn you know? It's romantic, with a hint of heat and I am hoping it is inspirational. Don't worry, the next story that I am currently working on will be hotter. I just was in the mood to write something loving.

For those of you asking about See No Evil yes it is coming. It is contracted to MuseItHot Publishing and is slated right now for Feb 2011. It is sensual, mystery and Interracial. I just survived the first round edits for it lol. I am thinking of writing two other books and make it a series but I am not sure. I will see how it does before I jump into that boat.

Some good news--my novella Love Reign has a new home right now. I haven't signed the contract yet because I got them in the email today. I guess by tomorrow, I will look through them but right now my brain hurt and I wish to write a couple more chapters on my WIP titled Love Don't Live Here Anymore . I may change the title but I don't know yet. We will see what happens by the end of the peice.

Anywho, that is my update--thanks for reading lol.

Hugs,
Kadian (Kendra Mei Chailyn)

My New Cover!!

2010-09-08T10:54:00.000-07:00

Hey Everyone,

Stopping by to show off my new cover!! Martine over at Devine Destinies LLC really rocked it with this one!! Shadowcat: Re's Curse is book one to a two storie series. The second book will be called Shadowcat: Re's Revenge, I think. I'll see how I feel once its finished.

This story is due out for Halloween!!

*hugs*
Kadian

Some of My Favorite Movie Quotes

2010-07-28T10:32:00.001-07:00

"Kill them all and let fate sort them out." -Wesley "WANTED"

"What the fuck have you done lately?" - Wesley "WANTED"

"And after all that, I still look good!" - "Cats and Dogs: Revenge of Kittie Galore"

"Live for nothing or die for something-your call." - John Rambo "Rambo 5"

"War is in your blood--and when pushed, killing is as easy as breathing." - John Rambo "Rambo 5"

"Yeah, and if she's lucky, maybe you'll get hit by a truck." Frank "The Transporter"

"He's leaked lubricant all over my foot! Hmmph!" - Ironhide "Transformers"

"Um, yeah...Satan's Camarao? It's stalking me!" - Sam Witwicky. "Transformers"

"Wow...this is garbage! You actually like this?" -Gru "Despicable Me!"

"That book was accidentally destroyed, maliciously." - Gru "Despicable Me!"

"Life is simple. You make choices and you don't look back." - Han "Fast and Furious: Tokyo Drift"

"Who you choose to be around you, lets us know who you are." - Han "Fast and Furious: Tokyo Drift"

"They say most of your brain shuts down during cryo-sleep. All but the primitive side, the animal side. No wonder I'm still awake." - Riddick "Pitch Black"

"Where the hell is your God now?" -Riddick "Pitch Black"

"You keep what you kill." -Riddick "Chronicles of Riddick"

"Sister, they don't know what to do with just one of me." - Riddick "Chronicles of Riddick"

"There is no future, until we settle our past." Shirah "Chronicles of Riddick"

"You ever watch lions at the zoo? You can always tell which ones were captured in the wild by the look in their eyes. The wild cat. She remembers running across the plain, the thrill of the hunt. Four hundred pounds of killing fury, locked in a box. But after a while, their eyes start to glaze over, and you can tell their soul has died. The same thing happens to a man. Leavenworth Federal Penetentiary is no joke. They'll take a wild man like you and throw him in solitary just for the fun of it. No more mountains to board, no more oceans to surf. Just a 6-by-8 cell with no window and only a bucket to shit in. You can avoid all of that by doing me this small favor." - Gibbons "xXx"

"Yeah, yeah. These monkeys are following me because I just took this car. Obviously the car doesn't belong to me, it's not my style. It belongs to Dick. Dick Hotchkiss, a California state senator. You remember Dick? He's the guy who tried to ban rap music because he feels that the lyrics promote violence. It's music, Dick! He's also the guy who wants to pull every video game off every shop in the country, because he feels that the video games diminishing intelligence of our youth. Oh, come on, Dick. It's only education we got. Dick, you're a bad man. You know what we do to bad men. We punish them. Dick, you've just entered The Xander Zone." -Xander Cage "xXx"

"I've been risking my life for a lot of stupid reasons. This is the first one that makes sense to me." - Xander Cage "xXx"

"Darius Stone: The fate of the free world in the hands of a bunch of hustlers and thieves."
"Agent Kyle Steele: Why should tonight be any different?"
"xXx - State of the Union"

"Welcome to the first tank-jackin in history!" - Darius Stone "xXx - State of the Union"

"If it got wheels, we can jack it." -Zeke "xXx - State of the Union"

"God's gonna sit this one out." -Frank Castle "The Punisher"

"You're one dumb son-of-a-bitch. Bringing a knife to a gunfight." -Harry Heck "The Punisher"

"I leave this as a declaration of intent, so no one will be confused. One: "Si vis pacem, para bellum." Latin. Boot Camp Sergeant made us recite it like a prayer. "Si vis pacem, para bellum - If you want peace, prepare for war." [cut to later, as Frank prepares his weapons for the final attack on Saint's gang] Two: Frank Castle is dead. He died with his family. Three: in certain extreme situations, the law is inadequate. In order to shame its inadequacy, it is necessary to act outside the law. To pursue... natural justice. This is not vengeance. Revenge is not a valid motive, it's an emotional response. No, not vengeance. Punishment." - The Punisher "The Punisher"

"Upset? Is that the word? I used to get upset. When I got a flat tire, when a plane was delayed. I used to get upset when the Yankees won the series. So if that's what upset means, what am I feeling now? If you know the word, tell me because I don't." - Frank Castle "The Punisher"

"I'm in a hostile environment. I'm totally unprepared. And I'm surrounded by a bunch of guys who probably want to kick my ass... it's like being back in high school." - Johnny Cage "Mortal Kombat"

"We got a guy with things comin' out of his hands, we got another guy who freezes stuff, and then there's a man, who as far as I can tell, is made out of electricity. I mean, how did he disappear like that? What is goin' on here? WHO IS THIS GUY?" Johnny Cage "Mortal Kombat"

"All these souls and you don't have one of your own. I pity you sorcerer." - Liu Kang "Mortal Kombat"

"Spare him, my lord Rayden, American life has enfeebled his mind. Too much television." - Grandfather "Mortal Kombat"

"Communism died, but what came in its place? A load of greed. A life spent longing for things you don't need!" - Aunt "Yes"

"I'm walkin here! I'm walkin here!" -Ratso Rizzo "Midnight Cowboy"

"One morning I shot an elephant in my pajamas. How he got into my pajamas, I don't know." -Captain Geophery T. Spaulding "Animal Crackers"

"I'll get you my pretty. And your little dog too." - Wicked Witch of the West "The Wizard of Oz."

"Rosebud." -Charlse Foster Kane "Citizen Kane"

"I'm mad as hell and I'm not going to take this any more." -Howeard Beale "Network"

**Bold quotes are my absolute faves!**

I Use My Wicked Cool Blog Skills for Good!

2010-07-15T09:32:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone!

Ok, so I know I've been bad and haven't blogged here in a while but you have to understand, June was crazy for me! I graduted university, it was my birthday month and job hunting. *rips hair out* Anyways, something good happened in June. My latest novel "MADE TO BEND, NOT BREAK" was released from Devine Destinies!! The beautiful cover is below! I'm still gaga over it by the way.

I am writing now like mad--or at least trying. I've got a new contract I should tell you about. For almost three years now I've been writing with my friend T.L Brooks. We've managed to write like four major novels and those novels have been boxing around on our computers because they are all over 80 000 words long and we're too chicken to tackle editing lol. Anyways, the other day we put our feet down and edited the first of many (it was written about third in the list) titled Liberated Seduction. I pitched it to the Publishing Trove and BAM! We got a contract for it. Not only will it be in ebook format but print as well with Passion In Print Publishing! *dances around*

T.L and I have all the contracts and stuff signed and returned so now we just have to finish a couple more forms and then we go into editing with the publishing house and then the ball will really start rolling. Isn't that ahh-sum? lol.

And my movie list for August has started. So far I have only one movie on the list THE EXPENDABLES. Seriously guys, this movie is going to be slamming! I mean check it out--it has Sly Stallone, Bruce Willis, Jet Li, Jason Statham, Terry Crews, Dolph Lundren, Randy "The Natural" Coutoure, Arnold Schwarzeneggar, Eric Roberts, "Stone Cold" Steve Austin, Mickey Rourke --and those are only the people I remember off the top of my head. So August 13th--don't email me and expect to get a message back the same day because I'll be out watching things blow up lol *runs around room making gun sounds*

Ok, I should probably get back to my day lol. Talk lata.

Hugs
Kadian Tracey

My beautiful cover!!

2010-06-13T17:50:00.000-07:00

So I came home from a LONG day of TESOL training and look what I had in my inbox!!!! Isn't it lovely??? This is my new cover and as promised, I am showing it off!! MADE TO BEND, NOT BREAK is coming June 15, to Devine Destinies!!!

Also, I have a new trailer that my beautiful niece helped me make.

Enjoy!!!

Hugs, Kadian

Evil has a face!

2010-06-08T08:10:00.000-07:00

Hello my lovelies!! I have some good news!! So today I was feeling knida down in the dumps and when I checked my email, guess what was there! My cover for "See No Evil!" I was flailing around like an idiot but I don't care. I love it! This story by the way, is coming next year at some point to Muse It Hot Publishing.

Though it isn't on my website yet (will be soon) it is on here and on my facebook. I am so happy with it I just had to show it off ASAP. It is so perfect! Delilah did an ahhh-sum job on it!! I thought I would share it with all of you!

It is dark, with the eye since the story is called "SEE No Evil" and my Indian female! Just looking at the cover makes me want to go out and write the next book and make it a series. But I don't know yet--it depends on what happens in the next couple of weeks! but anyways, here's the cover, done by Delilah Stephens!!

I should probably get back to writing my lesson plan for my practicum because I have to teach a class in a few days. *bites nails* I thought being somewhat of an actress would help me out here but I still get nervous. At least when I was acting, 90% of the times I wasn't on stage alone. But this is all me, baby! I have to do it all by myself. I just hope I remember some of the stuff I was taught over the last little while.

Talk later,
Kadian (Kendra Mei Chailyn)

New Contracts, Coming soon's and Writing

2010-06-03T07:42:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone! Happy summer! I know for most of you it's either raining or boiling or both. I feel your pain. lol. But I have good news! Ok where to start...Well, my novel Made to Bend Not Break has gone through edits with Devine Destinies and I survived. I've written in the first person before but not this length. This is actually a novel, novel! So I was terrified. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be because my editor rocks. So, the tentative date on Made to Bend Not Break is June 15, 2010. That's in twelve days! woohoo!!

Secondly, I wrote a novel with a friend, T.L Brooks, titled Liberated Seduction and the other day we pitched it to a group of publishers and it was accepted!! We have contracts right now waiting to be signed! I just have to print the contract and all that good stuff so both T.L and I can sign them and send them off. Will have more about that once we know more.

Laila, My Love is still available with Red Rose Publishing. It is back on the best sellers list. Stop by red rose and grab your copy. It may not be a LONG story but its a sweet story with a little heat that will sure to be a fun read while soaking in the tub.

What am I working on now? Well, I'm working on a few things. Still muddling away at RUNT OF THE PACK. Not sure where that is going to go but I'm still being pushed to write it. So far I am at two well written chapters. I am hoping that by the time I finish my TESOL certification it will be finished. I mean I spend two hours on the train to go and return home so can get some stuff hand written then. Anyways, I should get home before the rain really starts coming down.

Hugs,
Kadian (Kendra Mei)

Laila, My Love is Here

2010-03-25T09:57:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!

It's here! It's Here!! Laila, My Love is finally at Red Rose Publishing! Get your hot lil hands on a copy the LEGAL way. I am so excited about it! Here's the blurb again

Laila Coleman had a horrible life and living in the ghetto in a horrible apartment with an ass of a land. The only thing keeping her sane are the plans she has made with her best friend. Those plans depend on getting a job as a temporary live-in in nurse with the Stilwells. She is not about to let the sexy Morgan Stilwell take her mind off what she needs to do--no matter how well he kisses.

Morgan Stilwell is looking for love but has all but given up. When Laila Coleman walks into his life to be his father's temporary nurse, Morgan is left breathless, from her curves to her perfume. What further takes his heart, is the way she beat his father at his own game--but her damn plans are getting in the way.

My lovely editor told me about the release date but I was kinda in shock after I heard lol so I didn't say anything until now except to a couple of people who asked. But it's here! Anyways, this is a quick post to let you know it's live at Red Rose and that you can now get it. Now, must head off to Drama where I'm playing a Russian name Anna Petrovna from the play "Wild Honey"

Hugs,
Kadian

In Respects to OPP Officer Vu Pham

2010-03-12T10:49:00.000-08:00

Here's a snippet from what happened:

Constable Vu Pham was shot and killed Monday after pulling over a pickup truck on a rural southwestern Ontario road. In the funeral program Pham's wife Heather says her husband was the love of her life.

Pham, originally from Vietnam, was taken in as a boy by Dan Thompson, a southwestern Ontario pastor who later moved to northern Ontario, where Pham and his three new siblings were raised. Though Pham was never officially adopted by the Thompsons, he was part of the family from the moment they took him in, Mike Thompson said.
"He became my brother and my hero."

As a person and a romance author this spoke to me. I am going to say this before I say anything else. Vu Pham was a man charged with keeping our streets and citizens safe. He was doing his job when some grown ass man who should have known better shot and killed him. Heather, Vu's wife has lost the love of her life--this was the man who promised to love her through thickness and health and some idiot took him away. Now she will go to bed at nights and still expect him there to hold her, or to hear his cell phone go off and wake up with him to help him get dressed to go on the job--her heart is broken and its all over something stupid-something senseless. As a romance author that is so heartbroken--even as a person it is sad. That angers me like you will never know.

It angers me that they know, he shot and killed Officer Pham and they are still calling him 'alleged' shooter. Alleged? You know he did it! It's like US troops dropping a bomb on Canadian Troops and call it 'Friendly Fire'

The reason I said this killer should know better is because he's SEVENTY years old...not seventeen or seven...this man was SEVENTY. This man should have known better than to pull a gun on anyone for a simple traffic stop. All he would have gotten was probably a ticket, or a warning, that's it! But instead, he thought it was a great idea to kill a cop. This man was basically pissed off at his ex-wife and goes around with a rifle in his truck. This guy has been thinking of killing someone--he had to have been. I am so tired of people being pissed off at their lousy life and taking it out on law enforcement.

But today, today is the day is not about this jerk. It's about Constable Vu Pham. He came from Vietnam I am sure to make a better life for himself and probably thought he was thanking the country that allowed him to be free here by protecting it. I am so disheartened when I hear stories like this. Constable Pham was doing something good--something honourable. Officers from all over Canada and even from the United States has come together and is paying their respects. And while I am not a police officer, I have respect for what he did, what he tried to do for us.

This blog is to pay my respects for a Constable who was loved by his friends, family, co-workers and now by Canada. He will be missed.

R.I.P CONSTABLE VU PHAM; ONTARIO PROVINCIAL POLICE

Violence solves NOTHING. Pulling a gun on someone is the WORSE possible thing you can do. Someone said to me that if it wasn't officer Pham, it would have been someone else. It still doesn't make it better. It doesn't take away from the fact that someone is dead and never coming back. It doesn't take away from the fact that someone's husband is gone, someone's son, someone's brother--It's still heartbreaking so that bullshit kind of logic is irritating--keep that kinda crap to yourself. We need to find a way to limit the way people get and own weapons. I don't care if you need it for hunting or what--not every moron who think he/she needs a gun should be able to buy a gun.

I am not going to turn this into a push for better gun control, but let's face it, we need it.

Hugs to all,
Kadian

Happy Day--erm Sunshine Day

2010-03-12T08:44:00.000-08:00

I was nominated for the sunshine awards by Ms. Paty Jager! Colour me shocked! Thanks Paty! I am happy for that. Now the deal is I have to nominate a few of my favorite blogs...Let me see now... below are my nominees!

Thanks guys,

Kadian

Guest Blogger - Emma Lai

2010-03-10T10:02:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone! So I've kidnapped Emma Lai and made her guest blog here! lol just playing but today's guest is Emma Lai! Welcome to When Doves Cry, Emma!

Sweet Romance

Sometimes I feel as if the market demands sex with romance.

Take Regencies. When I started reading them, they were sweet courtship stories. A young miss sees a handsome lord, soldier or even plain mister across the crowded ballroom floor or the park and she’s in love. But the most popular line of Regencies has disappeared. Yes, you can still find Georgette Heyer, but most “Regencies” now have sex.

I’m not against sex. Far from it, but I don’t have to write it into every story. My first published story, His Ship, Her Fantasy is sweet. The characters just didn’t go there. It wasn’t important to building their relationship. The third story in the series is also sweet. And though it hasn’t been contracted yet, I don’t see myself adding sex just to sell it.

Blurb:
Ellie Woods is in love…with a ship. When an argument with the ship results in a bump on the head, she finds herself in the strong arms of Alastair. But, who is he, and where did he come from?

Alastair has loved Ellie from afar for years, but duty has kept him from revealing himself to her. When a grave threat reveals his true identity, he hopes that Ellie will choose reality over fantasy.

So, what about you? Do you sometimes crave sweet? Does it remind you of your younger self when seeing a boy smile your way made your heart jump?

New Contract!!

2010-03-06T07:04:00.000-08:00

So as many of you know, I started writing this novel last year. It took me months to give it a title because I couldn't figure out what to name it. Finally I decided on a title (I'm sorry to the cover artist who has to get this onto the cover) but I titled it MADE TO BEND, NOT BREAK. I think the title is important and I am hoping any woman feeling down because a man left them will learn something from this story.

But anyways, like I was saying, MADE TO BEND, NOT BREAK, was picked up by Devine Destinies! They are amazing people because that's where you can find my story A LOVER's WISH which is a best seller since it's release and a best seller at ARE! Thank you guys sooooo much! But I am so happy about my new contract! Now I am all nervous to see my cover.

*grins*
anyways, I should go back to my Saturday morning Cartoons!

Kadian

GOLD CANADA GOLD!

2010-02-28T17:01:00.001-08:00

Normally, I'm a relatively calm person but when I see my boys and girls win gold, in Hockey? I have to get up, clear my throat and run around my room, flailing like a kid and screaming "LUONGOLLLLLLD!!" Well sure I know Sidney Crosby scored the winning gold but Lu was AMAZING through that game (the goalie). Anyways, this is a short blog to say how absolutely proud I am of our guys and gals. I've been hearing some Canada bashing from people and let me say it now, though I believe in freedown of speech, if any of you comment on this blog I will block you and mark you as spam. If you have anything nasty to say keep that kind of crap to yourself. This is a STRICT Canada bashing-free zone.

The women hockey team shows once again that anything a man can do, women can do it too--well perhaps for you dirty minded folks out there, maybe not EVERYTHING but you know what I mean *blush*.

Congratulations to our Canadian Men and Women hockey teams. Congrats to all the Canadian Olympians and a big Congrats to all those Olympians who refused to get caught up in the Political bullshit that so many were involved in. Many thanks to Vancouver for showing Canada in a positive light!!! And amazing Olympics guys!

*hugs*
Kadian Tracey

Boy how time flies!

2010-02-27T03:01:00.000-08:00

Two years ago on February 27 I received an email with the sweetest words, “I would like to offer you a contract for this series.”
For most of my life I’ve wanted to be a published author and everything I’ve done–the jobs I’ve had, the English courses in college, the novel writing workshops, etc.–has revolved around this one goal. The past couple of years have been quite interesting. I’ve learned more about writing by being in the trenches. I’ve met some wonderful people and made some great friends in the publishing community. Each day I strive toward perfecting my craft and look to the time I receive ‘The Call’ from NY.
My first series I had pitched and received a contract on through eXtasy Books was The Si’Ludo Sisters. The storyline started off as a trilogy about triplet sisters who discover they have more than just human roots and powers beyond their imaginations as they find and fall in love with their lifemates.

A fourth story, The Redeemer, was added to the story line and the four stories appeared in print in September 2008. Then in 2009 I expanded the series with three more non-erotic books ~ the Si’Ludo Prophesy series. The Prophesy series is available at Devine Destinies. Both series are about beings from another world who escaped from war and destruction where the good guys have special powers and psychic vampire abilities and the bad guys are more like your blood sucking vampires. The Si’Ludo Prophesy series also won Best Series 2009 for Love Romances Café’s Best of 2009!
Over the course of the two years I’ve had the above mentioned stories released along with several others and currently I have a handful of projects in the works. My main point I’d like to make today is if you’re a new writer looking for a ‘home’ for your story, or for anyone who has a specific dream/goal, don’t give up! Writers, learn what you can about the business, research the publishing houses to make sure your story fits and go for it. Life’s too short to not attempt to make your dreams reality.
For more info on me and my books, please visit: http://home.earthlink.net/~cr_moss/

Thank you Kadian for letting me blog here today!

Inappropriate Ring Tones and more

2010-01-11T18:30:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone!

Happy new year! This is a blog to do a few things. First things first, I am back and is barely caught up with emails, cover request, trailer requests, banner requests etc. So give me some time. Secondly, I have to say I was shocked this morning when I checked my email and saw that Ms. Shara Azod had read my story "A LOVER'S WISH" and actually liked it! She wrote that A Lover's Wish is "A hot story," and to me she said "Well done!"

Pardon me while I flail.

*Flails*

Oh, do NOT click Shara's Link if you're UNDER 18.

Why am I so happy when a fellow writer says nice things about my work? Well because she is a fellow writer. And secondly, because A Lover's Wish is romance, sweet at times sensual, a bit hot, I don't think many mainstream review sites will touch it/accept it. Why? Because it's not erotica. I'm sorry but sometimes I feel like writing a heartfelt romance--you know the type that we used to read back in the day with a new 'me' twist. So, I figured I will have the same problem with getting reviews for ALW as I did for Broken Wings. I still haven't gotten it reviewed because people keeps sending it back to me saying it wasn't "chosen" to be reviewed. That irritates the HELL out of me. But them's the breaks.

Laila, My Love (Written under Kendra), has been contracted to Red Rose Publishing. It is slated for April of 2010! I have a cover for it but I am waiting for the logo to go it before I can show it off but its just what I wanted on my cover!!

Please remember that A Lover's Wish is at Devine Destinies! So grab your copy and if you'd like to send me a review for it, I'd gladly take it.

Now for the main reason I am blogging today because otherwise I would be workig on a play I am planning on submitting to my school's drama department.

So, today I had my Intro to Acting 2 class (Don't really need it to learn acting since I've been doing it since I was like eight years old but for my degree it's a must) and after it was finished, I was hot, sweaty and rushed as I hauled ass across campus to get to my Topics in Literature class (this semester we're doing Adaptations - Books turned into movies). Anyways I got there and finally class started. We were in the middle of why the Maltese Falcon is the best 1920's PI novel ever written (which I agree with) when all of a sudden we heard the sound of someone getting slapped and then "Shut up bitch!" then Ludacris's song "Move Bitch" began playing.

We all spun around to glare at this guy who had walked in FORTY minute slate to see him turning off his cell phone. It got me thinking, at what point in our lives do we get up one day and think that violence against woman would make a SWELL ringtone? And whose bright idea was that? Not only was it inappropriate, but it was just stupid. The poor teacher was glaring at him because she is heavy into women's rights. And the other guys in the room all looked as though they wanted to head a desk.

Is it ever OK, to use a ring tone like that? I mean just because it is there, doesn't mean you should put it on your phone. It's like last semester in one of my classes someone's phone rang and all you here is, "you stupid mother fucker!"

That was not OK at all and the teacher kicked the owner of the cell phone out of the room. What does it say about the person who has such a thing on their phone and proudly display it everytime the phone rings?

Anyways, I guess I am a different breed of twenty-something year old. I don't think any of that is appropraite no matter how old you are.

Anywho,
I'd better get the editing on that script done. Don't have much time.

*hugs*
Kadian

A LOVER'S WISH ---IS HERE!!

2009-12-15T14:01:00.000-08:00

*Flails* I am so happy! A Lover's Wish went live today over by Devine Destinies!! I thought getting the cover was where the excitement ended but no...I feel like it's my first release all over again! A Lover's Wish in my opinion is two hundred and forty five pages of Blasian Yumminess but hey, why take my word for it? Grab your own copy! Oh, and look in the new year for A Lover's Wish contest #2! Do not forget to visit the website for news, peeks, what I'm working on as both myselves lol and much more!

Without further ado--Here's a quick peek in:

A Lover's Wish
© Copyright Kadian Tracey
All Rights Reserved, Devine Destinies

To grab your own copy of A Lover's Wish visit http://www.devinedestinies.com/

or Click here

Excerpt:

Dao's body was stiff, sitting against the leather seat in the private plane. He rested his elbow against the window and propped his chin up with his arm. The plane taxied down the runway and lifted into the air. He never liked flying, but when the plane lifted off from Pearson International Airport, Dao didn't get that strange, queasy feeling he normally got. At that moment, he just felt numb and cold. He couldn't feel anything else. That scared him because he wanted to feel something, anything at all.

When the plane levelled off and the seatbelt sign pinged off, something caught his attention out of the corner of his eyes and he looked around. Kianna--he had been a horrible host to her. It was strange for she had been so quiet in the grand chaos of his mind that he had forgotten she was there. He was literally kidnapping her from her home, taking her across the world and he hadn't even explained to her what was happening. To make matters worse, he had just sat there like a zombie while she was probably bored or hurting and confused.

The ride over in the limo she had tried to get him to eat, but Dao wasn't really hungry. She had then given him a protein shake from the limo's fridge right after threatening to hook him up to an IV if he didn't eat something. Feeling horrible, he had taken it and drank a couple of swallows before handing it back. The smile she had given him then caused him to take the can back and drain it. Just to see her smile. She had just shifted in her seat and that had caught his attention.

If he had any doubts about hiring her before, they were gone when he saw the way she spoke to his flight attendants. She had stepped up to the plate and ordered that he have something light for lunch since she wasn't sure when the last time was that he had eaten. Kelly, the stewardess agreed. As he sat there watching her read, a smile graced his eyes and he inhaled deeply.

"I'm sorry," he spoke.

Her head snapped up from the book she was reading.

"I should tell you what is happening and where we're going."

"That would be nice." She nodded and closed the book. "I did not want to add more stress to what you were going through."

"How do you know it is stressful?"

"You all but kidnapped me." She smirked.

Dao nodded. "I deserved that."

"But seriously." Kianna smiled. "I can see it in your eyes."

"The phone call I got earlier was from my parents. Well my mother at least. She never calls me. I always call her because it's really expensive for her to call me and I don't want her spending too much money because of a phone call. In order for her to call, she has to travel on the Li River and I don't like her doing that alone. She told me that my father had an accident and they don't think he has much time."

"I'm sorry--"

"Thank you. So we're heading to Yangshuo. I know it's a little bit out of your life, but I would really appreciate you with me so that I can still do a little business while I'm there." He arched his brow for the look she was giving him was starting to scare him. Moving close to her, he knelt before her. She was shaking slightly, but her gaze didn't leave his face. Dao was scared. "Kianna!" He took her hands. Her fingertips were freezing. Lifting her fingers to his lips, he blew against them before burying her smaller hands inside his. "Kianna? Speak to me."

"Yangshuo…"

He was stunned because the way she said it was the exact same way a person from Yangshuo would pronounce it. The emphasis was on the right letters and he wondered how she knew to do that. She couldn't have gotten it by him saying the word once. "Yes."

"Your parents live in Yangshuo--Xingping?"

"Yes, to be exact."

"Your parents live in Xingping."

"Kianna, you said that already. What's wrong? I can let you go back to Toronto once we get to Hong Kong if you'd like."

"No." She shook her head and looked down into his eyes. "I saved for years to go to China. Then there was a family emergency and I gave the money to help. I never thought I'd be able to save up enough to go because it's so expensive to travel."

"Well now you are going." He smiled. "I'm sorry that it's under such dire circumstances, but you will get a chance to see some things while there."

"Thank you," she whispered. "But we are going to China to make sure your parents are well--not for me to go on vacation."

Dao watched her. There was a strength in her voice and eyes that caused his heart to throb sweetly within his chest. He was still holding her hands. When she bowed her head and looked at where he held her, he let her go and moved back to his seat. But his gaze never left her, even after she went back to her book. Tilting his head, he glanced at the cover and blushed before turning to look out the window. She was reading one of those romance novels that his mother would read when he was younger. Even today, he would get them specially translated into Cantonese and shipped to her. They would make her sound so happy.

At that moment, Dao wondered what kind of men Kianna dated. Did she like them to touch her tenderly or roughly? Was she a romantic person? Turning his head, he looked at her and for that moment, his depression was gone. His gaze caressed her face--with the full lips, sad brown eyes, proud nose. While his gaze travelled down her neck, over full breasts and lower, his mind came to one conclusion--any man she dated was lucky.

He said nothing. Dao took his pleasure from watching her read. From time to time, she would gasp and flip the page quickly. Other times, she would smile or giggle softly.

"Our flight is fourteen hours, roughly," he spoke.

She looked up.

"I didn't mean to interrupt you, but would you like to talk? My brain is going too fast and I need to hear someone's voice."

She smiled and closed her book. She stuck it beside her in the seat and crossed her legs.
Dao bit back a moan. Nothing she did was overtly sexual, but just that alone--their simplicity turned him on more than he even thought was possibly.

"What would you like to talk about?"

"I don't know. Tell me a little about yourself."

"There isn't much to tell. I'm an only child now, both parents are gone. My brother was killed in a car accident when I was seventeen."

"I'm sorry."

"It's alright, really," she replied. "It happened over ten years ago."

"What do you like to do?"

"Nothing lately. I haven't had the urge to do much of anything. But before, I loved the theatre, reading, trying to learn different languages--geeky things like that." She chuckled. "I told you there wasn't much."

Dao nodded. "Thanks for the warning." A smile was on his lips. "This may be none of my business and if it is, please tell me and I will respect your answer. Are you seeing anyone?" He watched as she looked away from him and reached for her book again. He assumed she didn't want to talk about it so he nodded and looked back out the window. He had crossed the line, but for some reason he wanted her to look at him and answer to the negative. The thought of her being with another man angered him. He chuckled to himself before getting up and turning to leave the main area.

"Mr. Zhi?"

"It's Dao--please."

"Dao--no I'm not seeing anyone."

The relieved smile that swam over him shocked Dao. It was a good thing he wasn't looking at her when she spoke for she would have seen it.

"Where are you going?"

"I was going to leave you to your book," Dao replied. Wiping the smile from his face, he turned around to look at her. "I thought that was what you wanted. Did I think wrong?"

"Yes," her voice was soft and she stood. She walked toward him.

Dao could not move away. He thought maybe she wanted to walk around him, but his feet wouldn't move. Still, he stood in her path, but she didn't try to get around him. Instead, she braced a palm against his chest, pushed up onto her tiptoes and brushed her lips gently against his. He growled and reached for her hair. He tangled his fingers in it, then pulled her lips roughly against his. When her lips spread for his tongue, he readily drank from her heat, sliding his tongue against hers and growling his satisfaction. He bit against her lower lip and pulled before sucking the pain away. He took her lips again, this time he conquered her, tasting, kneading, moulding their mouths together. When she finally pulled back, Dao was out of his mind with arousal, but let his hands fall away from her. "What--what was that for?" he questioned, pulling her lips back to his again. She tasted so good, his mouth watered. He was drunk with her scent.

* * * *

Kianna Sanderson had just done something completely out of her league. Kissing someone by just taking what she wanted was never something she would normally do, especially with her boss. But Dao's lips were calling to her and she couldn't resist. Inhaling deeply, she pulled way from him and stumbled into her seat again.

"I'm sorry," she whispered. Her body was still pulsating sweetly from the kiss. It was a short kiss, but it was the most wonderful kiss she'd ever experienced. It was so wrong, but it had caused her heart to hammer in her chest. All she had to do was behave herself and not maul her boss because she thought he was so sexy. Burying her face in her hands, Kianna inhaled deeply.

"Kianna?"

His voice was soft, husky. She didn't look at him. How could she look him in the eyes after what she had just done? She felt his hands on her, trying to pull her hands away, but she fought him back. He was stronger, however, and her hands fell away.

"What are you sorry about, Kianna?" his voice showed genuine concern. "We're two consenting adults. We shared a kiss--one that I thoroughly enjoyed. Why are you sorry?"

Kianna couldn't speak. The words that she wanted to put forth died in her throat. He had said he enjoyed her kiss and she knew then he was toying with her. He had to have been. How could he--Dao Zhi--have wanted a kiss from her? She rubbed her eyes and took a deep breath.

"Talk to me."

"It didn't happen," Kianna spoke strongly. "It never happened."

"Kianna I don't--"

"There's nothing for you to understand!" Kianna interrupted too harshly. "It never happened."

It's that time of year again!

2009-12-09T17:07:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone! It is that time of year again and christmas is here!! I would like to say a few things before my wrap up and me burrowing under some textbooks for exams.

Please do not forget that A LOVER'S WISH now has a new release date! Is is due out from Devine Destinies on December 15, 2009.

OSHUN'S FALL is now out with Phaze! So grab your copy of this short, Paranormal tale!

My novella LAILA, MY LOVE is due out at Red Rose Publishing in the new year.

My co-authored as a part of the Writing Divas, Novella VELOCITY is coming Feb 2010 to Phaze! So even though Iwon't be around for a bit, you will have plenty of hot tales to warm your winter *grins* .

But in all seriousness, thank you to those of you who have stopped by to see how I was after the passing of my beloved grandmother and my aunt. I appreciated that like you would never understand. Thanks for the well wishes and the words of encouragements.

I wish for you all a wonderful holiday season, no matter what you celebrate. Hug someone, tell that person you've loved for so long that you love them. Life is short so live it well.

Hugs and love,
Kadian

PS: The sexy santa is for all you ladies who kept emailing me asknig where I got him lol.

Remember when...

2009-12-07T16:46:00.000-08:00

...Grease was the word?

...Living on the Down Low meant you were living a secret life/having an affair and had nothing with being secretly gay?

...music like "Rocky Stead" by The Whispers and "My Best friend" by Kelly Price featuring R.Kelly and Ron Isely was REAL music.

...When "Move bitch get out the way!" was not acceptable on television, radio or anywhere for that matter?

...you could go to a concert with like 60 000 other people and had a good time without worring about catching a bullet?

...your children could walk home from school without you fearing that some low life would snatch them away?

...Boys walked around with their pants at their waists and didn't look like plumbers?

....you could buy your kids any CD/Casette/record without looking at the back because you know there wouldn't be anything offensive in the music?

...Patrick Swayze was sexy as hell just because he danced and no one thought it was 'gay'?

...children didn't bring guns to school?

...condoms weren't being given to thirteen year olds?

...kids used to say 'yes sir' 'no ma'am' and not up 'yours?'

...our elders were revered for the knowledge they could pass down and not being abused?

...our war vets were respected, the flag was set at half mast during memorial/veteran's day?

...guys used to pick up their dates at the girl's home, meet the parents before taking their daughter's out?

...saying 'I do' did not mean "I will sleep with you but if you say no one night I shall find someone else who will scratch my itch."

...falling in love was something everyone sought and a good love story made us cry?

...watching movies under the stars was the IT thing?

...lying on your back staring up on the stars was better than and TV show Disney or anyone else could cook up?

...getting a degree (BA) in university meant you could actually get a job in that field and not work at McDonalds while trying to pay off student loans?

...having a job that paid the bills was respected no matter if you were working as a CEO or washing dishes?

...men wanted to work and take care of their women and not the other way around?

...friendship meant something--something to be loved and protected and did not mean shove the knife a little deeper---now twist?

...having a shoulder to cry on meant just that and not "where the bed at?"

...having a boyfriend didn't mean ignore all your friends?

...when double dating didn't mean orgy (excluding the 60's lol)?

...girls would have each other's backs?

...two guys could hug without others looking at it as a 'homosexual' thing to do?

...having a few pounds over 120 lbs was looked at as sexy and not a sentence to loneliness for life? (We're talking renaissance here but hey!)

...saying I love you didn't make you a sucka?

...girls used to say "let's wait a while..." didn't mean her boyfriend suddenly didn't love her anymore?

....smoking in public was frowned upon?

...boys wouldn't haul up a lugi (phlegm) and spit it in front of a woman?

Ahh the good old times.
Kadian

Updates, Releases Etc

2009-12-03T19:47:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone,

Yes, I know I've been scarce but it's not my fault! Really... Ok, here's an update. So life has been a rather hectic time lately. School has slightly gotten more irritating and out of control, I was doing nano, christmas craziness while trying to have a social life...

Anywho, My first contest for A Lover's Wish has been over a while (I know) and the winner was Tan06 (not sure if I should use her real name. Thank you for everyone who entered. Please look forward to my other contests for A Lover's Wish as the year goes by.

Speaking of segways--lol--I know you were looking for A Lover's Wish to be released on December 1, 2009 and I am sorry it wasn't but you know how it goes, things happen--but I have been given a new date--December 15, 2009. So Look for it to be available from Devine Destinies then. If anything changes I will be sure to let you know.

Also my new website is up and running so please be sure to update your links accordingly. You may have noticed I have merged both my websites into one. I am debating on whether or not to do that to my blog as well but I do not see any pros to that except cutting down on updates. So I don't think that will happen.

I have gotten a couple of emails about my untitled novel--people asking if I have gotten it titled yet. I think the answer to that is a weak yes. Right now it is titled Made to Bend, Not Break. Some of you may get that as well as others may not. But that is the title right now. It may change down the road so it's a working title.

And guys, I have facebook. Just search Kendra Mei Chailyn and add me. I will try to get back to you as soon as I can on there. I will leave another blog before Xmas--probably around the 15th.

So that's where I've been and been doing--I have one more paper, four exams and a road trip in the winter..wee!

Hugs,
Kadian

You know what really grinds my gears?

2009-11-17T07:56:00.000-08:00

Ok I have to do this whole blog without a profanity so here goes--

People who use the bathroom and don't wash their hands- I don't know how many times you turn on the television or read the newspaper and you aren't bombarded by news about this person dying of the H1N1 or swine flu...seriously, people are DYING from this. And they said one of the ways to help cut down on people catching these things is to wash your hands regularly--especially after using the bathroom. Now seriously, we learned from a very young age that after using the bathroom we're supposed to wash our hands. I mean for crying out loud, I was brought up in a third world country and even I was taught that, yet people who were born and bred in this country and are not adult the whole concept of washing their hands after using a bathroom, especially a public one, escapes them. I mean even if you weren't going to wash your hands and you see someone standing at the sink, take the thirty seconds and wash your hands. I do NOT want to catch anything so me holding a door knob after you is just going to piss me off.

People who missing the mark - - Ladies, seriously, because their is a drain on the floor is no excuse for you to miss the toilet. If you were a guy, I could understand you having bad aim but we don't have that problem! Thankfully! Cover the seat with one of those seat coverings, they are tacked to the wall right over the toilet. Then sit your ass down. Do you know how disgusting it is to walk into a toilet and see pee on the floor? And don't tell me it's water because water doesn't stink to high heaven. You are in university damn it! Act like it.

People who smoke right at the doors-- Knock knock, who's there? CANCER! Idiots, there are rules about where you smoke for a reason! Don't stand on either side of the damn doors of the entrance to a building puffing away. I have nothing against smokers, I just don't want to inhale second hand smoke. My parents don't smoke and I don't so I would really appreciate you using the designated smoking areas--and since when is it PC to designate an area for smoking? If you can't hold off until you get home to light up perhaps you should buy a damn bubble and just live there.

Oh yes, my new website is up http://trueloveiscolourblind.yola.com

*Sigh*
Ok that's my rant,
Kadian

Ugh Drama & News

2009-11-15T09:22:00.000-08:00

So, a I had this huge blow up with my host--they told me a month or so ago that I couldn't use paypal to renew my website (which is what I bought it with to begin with) and that I had to use a credit card. Now seriously, I am in University, with a CRAP load of student loans, do I really need a credit card to add to my torture? So no, I don't have a credit card yet and that's for good reason--I'm a swiper...anyways...after they told me that I figured ok, I'll just let it expire and then re-buy it since who is really going to buy my domain name anyways? So there was no fear of losing it to someone else--right?

Ok, so yesterday I logged into my email to see that the host has taken out over a hundred bucks!! Ok that made me so angry! I was like, how do they say I couldn't renew using paypal and they withdrew money from my account using paypal? So needless to say I am no longer with them because I do not like it when inside a business people don't communicate or they don't know what they're talking about--you'd understand better if you knew what happened to me at school (I have to spend an extra semester because my adviser last year told me I needed a class but I didnt need it so I put off a course I should have taken in order to take the course that I didn't really need in the first place..LOOONG story) so after that, I made up my mind not to deal with people who seem not to know what they're talking about.

So now, Not only am I doing Nano and determined to finish it this time, I am also recreating my website, merging my Kendra site with my Kadian site, re-branding myself and my work, overhauling my myspaces, doing school assignments, getting ready for exams and xmas break - so yes, I know my .com for Kendra isn't working. I am working as fast as I can to fix all that. Almost there though...just need to spell check the site to make sure all is well with it because sometimes I tend to type faster than I think and mistakes are made lol.

Anyways for some good news. Those of you who follow my writing closely, will know that I was working on a story titled "LAILA, MY LOVE" after it was rejected from one house, I did some editing, a little bit of re-writing and submitted it somewhere else. To my pleasure it was accepted. Now I can't say where yet because I haven't signed the contracts etc yet. Once those are done and returned then I shall let you know.

Right--must go back to website creating and swearing at computer lol

*hugs*
Kadian

Let the madness begin!

2009-10-31T12:15:00.000-07:00

So it is almost november--actually nine hours till november. November to most of us writers mean chaos, mayhem, vampires, lovers, sex, rock n roll and a whole host of other things that we hold so dear in our fiction. What does it mean? NANOWRIMO!!!!! I have changed my ideas so many times, it is not funny. My friend Ashe is probably getting whiplash from the man ideas I have shoved her way so far. But she knows I share cuz I love...right Ashe...right...?? Ashe????

So yes, I have finally settled on an idea that has been plaguing me for months. I am not settled on the title yet but the gist of the story is about an ex military man, who is best friend with a muslim man. They grew up together and are extremely close. The joined the military together with the promise that if one or the other should die in battle the other would take him home to his family. The female, is Supriya and she falls for the military man *giggles* of course. Yes it is IR.

I am also working on a yet to be titled novel. My friend Ashe and I have been calling it "MACY" just because I haven't been hit in the back of the head with a title yet. It is at 52K and counting. It still has a ways to go before it is finished yet. So I am putting that on the back burner until I can finish the nano story. Let's hope I make 50K this year. With school and life, and going nuts, I don't know. I make no promises but I can do it though. I wrote the 50K on the Untitled novel in a little under two weeks. I just have to stick to my goal and schedule. 5K a day until it's done right? And this year I have company so I wont be doing it alone. Ashe, the talented lady that she is will be writing a novel too!! So we can do it!

Anyways, gonna go back to cleaning so that I can be ready for Nannooooooo!

A LOVER'S WISH Contest!

2009-10-03T22:19:00.000-07:00

Hi Again,

I am running a contest at Coffee Time Romance for A LOVER'S WISH! If you click here you can go straight to it. Answers can be found somewhere on my website site so it's not very hard. This is the first of a few contest I will be running for this release so enter today! Here's the link again just in case the one above didn't work for you http://www.coffeetimeromance.com/ContestPage.html just copy and paste it into your browser!

Good luck!

Kadian

Please Vote for me!

2009-10-03T12:01:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone,

I was talkined into entering the Scarlet Boa this year and I did! I am number 70! Please vote for me. The voting happens between Oct 1, 2009 and Oct 15, 2009. You can read by entry by clicking here or copying this link http://www.stellacameron.com/scarletboa09/scene70.html and you can vote by clicking here or copying this link http://www.stellacameron.com/scarletboavote.html

Thanks and much love,

Kadian

R.I.P Auntie Neetie

2009-10-01T16:43:00.000-07:00

Today I had this urge to open my personal email account - the one I used to talk back and forth to my mother at nights and for job interviews etc and I got the sad news that my aunt (my mom's sister)has died from her Cancer in Jamaica. I wish I could be home with my mother at the moment but I have to finish this Degree and my exams are coming up.

I know she has been sick for years. And my mom went to Jamaica this past summer for my grandmother's funeral and saw Auntie Neetie Her sister). The thing is, Auntie Neetie has always been a constant name in my house - for prayers or phone calls or well wishes. Whenever we call her or she calls she always say to me, "What are you doing now?" and I would say to her, "I'm in College or University, Antie" and she would say to me, "Good girl. You keep strong and believe in the lord and everything will be fine."

As I sit here I know for a fact that I will miss her encouragements because sometimes when she calls and talks to me, I am in such a bad place with worry and her voice and her encouragements lifts me so high that I go out and do things I was scared to do before. They may seem like simple words to you or anyone else reading this blog but to me they mean the world. Another very smart man (my father) once said to me, "I'm not saying the big things in life doesn't matter. but the small things sometimes matter more." And her encouragments may have been a small thing but they mattered to me more than anything.

I know my mom will miss her terribly because the two of them were close. My mom loves her dearly and even though I can't be there for my mom to give her a hug she knows I love her and I know she will be alright because my father is there and he will do everything in his power to comfort her. But it's not the same. Sometimes it doesn't seem fair--my mom just lost her mother, then her grand uncle-in-law and now her sister. It just seem that when it rains it pours.

R.I.P Auntie Neetie

Love,

Kadian

PS: Antie is how you say Aunty in Patois (Patwah)

Dove's "Broken Wings"

2009-09-27T20:00:00.000-07:00

Hello,

I was speaking to someone yesterday and he asked me why I titled my first novel under my real name "Broken Wings." The truth is, I didn't have a choice. Many of you authors get your ideas by seriously thinking, but I got my idea in church. Sundays when I am not in university and away from home, I spend it in Church with my mom. That's our time together. I was sitting there the day and I think the pastor was speaking about women in abusive relationships and how that wasn't where God wanted them. He was saying that sometimes these women stay in these horrible situations because of something that happened in their childhood--their father beat them and said "I love you that's why I do this--" which later gets carried over into their adult life when their men beat them and say the say thing they believe it's for real and don't leave (this was just one of the examples he gave).

The idea smacked me and I remembered I must have cringed for my mom turned and asked if I was alright. For the rest of the day this story was inside my head and I just couldn't get it out. After church my mom and I make supper and we all have dinner at the table since Sundays is the only day of the week when both my parents and myself are at home - I make sure I make no plans for Sundays. During the week everyone is working, baseball, friends everything just get in the way so Sunday is our family day. Anyways that night after dinner and my parents were chilling watching television - my dad was probably watching CNN and my mom stealing the remote to watch something else lol --I went up to my room and started writing. It was only a couple of weeks later the whole thing was finished and I started editing.

By the time it was finished, I couldn't get it accepted anywhere. I one publisher (which shall remain nameless) told me to change the main male into a white guy and move the story fromt he location that it takes place in. I told them to go suck a lemon (and this is me being polite here). I was given many excuses in rejection letters from the typical "it's not for us," to "It is too dark" to "add more sex." But I didn't set out to write something that was written every day and I sure as hell didn't set out to write an erotica. I set out to write something that was placed in my heart and to kinda of get some Therapy in the process - I guess.

Therapy? You must be asking WTF? Well it simple -- When I was a child I didn't have the best of childhoods (until I was adopted at 13). My new parents are amazing and I would do anything for them but my real mother was somewhat of a tyrant. Monique's childhood was as close as I could get to my own childhood without me breaking down and sobbing through editing. So this story was a part of my therapy in dealing with those memories so that's why she is the way she is.

I refused to Change Devaughn into a Caucasian male, not because I have anything against Caucasians because I LOVE writing Interracial stories - but this story was NOT meant to be IR. I wrote Devaughn because the majority of romances these days have Caucasian men and I wanted to show a black man that is strong, independent, not a thug and loves his woman so deeply that he goes to the brink of being pulled into her darkness with her. My baby sisters (20 & 21) read the stories that I write under my real name and I want them to see that there are strong men out there. I want them to see that if a Black guy step to them and he's like Devaughn then there's no shame in it. As well I wanted to put an African American male in a story that doesn't have him carrying a gun with baby mamas. I wanted him to be different.

Now to focus on why the story focused on Monique's drama. I don't know--and that's the truth. That was how the story came out. I had absolutely no control over it what-so-ever.

Anyways, that is my speel on Broken Wings. You can read an excerpt if you would like. You can find it by clicking here. Be careful since it is in both ebook and Print. Make sure you get the version you want.

I am still trying to gather reviews for it but so far not having any luck. I'm still going though.

*hugs*

Kadian

This Dove is in PAIN!

2009-09-25T10:03:00.000-07:00

Hey All,

so, today has been a rather interesting day. So last night I decided to sleep on the ground so that my back had a hard surface to rest on. BAD IDEA! Man, it hurt even more by half way through the night so I got up and haul my body to my bed. The bed doesn't help because it's one of those dorm beds that forms to your body. So I spent the rest of the night lying on my back, tossing, gritting my teeth, turning and whimpering in pain. Why am I in pain? If you haven't read the other blog from a few days ago - I pulled a muscle in it while at the gym on Tuesday. Woke up this morning and could barely get out of bed.

Moving on, this morning I had a big day planned. It was all planned. I wanted it all to go smoooooothly. I'm gonna stop here to tell you, never plan your day. It never go like you want it. Here's proof.

This pic of the pole looking thingie, is a piece of artwork of recycling containers. I thought it's kinda cool.

My friend and I are taking this Theatre history course and she travelled the other day and left her book at the place where she stayed so they now have to ship it. She has NO idea when they will ship it so she asked to borrow my book to photo copy the first chapter so she doesn't fall too behind for reading since it's almost October and exams are quickly approaching like a ninja wearing slippers. (for those of you who doesn't get that joke, it means the Ninja is coming really fast and quietly. so exams are coming--well you get the picture). Anywho, she was supposed to visit me this morning at ten before I went to get the money the school owed me (FIN-fricking-A-ly!) then I was gonna come back home, she was going to call me to make sure I was back to bring the book back to me. Then I was gonna waddle my pain-riddled booty to the groceries (A half an hour walk on a good day) and get aspirins for my pain. But to top it off, I was gonna wake up at ten to get that all done.

First thing to go wrong, didn't wake up when my alarm went off at ten. Hit my snooze button twice -while thinking perhaps if I had an open window I would have sent my alarm clock flying-and got up at ten thirty. Wanted to take a shower but bending over hurt so I bypassed that. Got dressed (took me a good five minutes to get my pants alone on ugh) and sat down with a pillow behind my back for half an hour waiting for my friend but she never showed. Got pissed off and waddled to school (when I wasn't supposed to because I have the day off but I had to work around their schedule if I wanted my money back) only to see a giant ass line! Then to make it worse, only two people were working at peak time. I was livid. I wonder if they believe that it's only students, they won't complain, they have to do what we say! Two people for a university Cashier's office, at 11 o clock in the day when everyone is out of class! So I jamed on my mp4 player to some Pink (if you haven't heard the song 'funhouse' yet, you should. It's on youtube), Prince and Epik High. I was half way through Michael Jackson's Blod on the Dance Floor, when I finally got to the window. I showed my id, got my cheque and left. I finally got to stop for breakfast (now this was about a little after mid-day. I should have eaten at ten because I am on a diet and have to eat every four hours) and waddled back home.

I got home, still no call from my friend and I wanted to be a good girl so I left her a facebook message. Waited ten minutes then waddled half an hour to the grocery shop. Now check this out, I went for aleve and toilette paper. I shopped, came home, had a really nice cab driver who helped me carry my heavy bags, since I bought a 24 pack of water (it was on sale at 2.49 a pack for 24! I'd have to be nuts to pass that up). Got home, started talking to my friend Scottie on yahoo messenger then it hit me. I palmed my forehead and moaned, I bought the Aleve because with the pain in my back how could I forget that!? But I forgot toilette paper! It's not that I was out, but I will be by tomorrow so now I have to finish this blog, haul my booty BACK to the store instead of lying on my back doing nothing like I wanted to do! Burn that! I am TOOTALY taking cab - Can't make the walk twice in one day especially in this sun. Anyways, I'd better do it now since I have talked myself into it or I'll be sorry tomorrow... And yes, I did find time to take some pics--I took them with my MP4 player which I probably should have charged while I was sitting here typing this all out and loading the pics ---*sigh* It's just been a rather bad and irritating day and it's only one thirty...

*hugs*

Kadian

I got new model!

2009-09-24T08:29:00.000-07:00

Hey ma babies

I am blogging with some sweet news! Remember my fanmail? Well after getting that I've decided to actually stop procrastinating (my second favourite past-time) and do the Major revisions needed for my short story Greyson's Heart. I have re-titled it Greyson's Second Chance and given it a new cover. That is just half the most excellent news.

The rest of the most awesome news? I have an actual model on the cover!!His name is Adnan - isn't he fabulous? Wait I have to say it right FAB-U-LOUS! I met him in high school and he's a really good friend. He's currently roaming the world like nomad but technology has kept us close. I miss him terribly but facebook and MSN are beautiful things in times like this. He has so graciously, blushes and all, agreed to be my cover boy whenever I need him and I needed him for Greyson. I didn't want a face that was seen on other covers all the time from all the other stock photo places.

Anyways, enough gushing about my fantabulous Adnan, my back is still hurt because of that pulled muscle but I am feeling much better. I am so tired--stayed up all night making that cover then stayed up till almost 5 AM torturing Adnan it was such fun but now I am *yawn* exhausted.

And guess what, I have a FULL day of classes today... But am not complaining don't talk to the boy as much as I used to --I used to talk to him every day at school---and then BAM! We had to grow up...*Sigh* don't you just hate when real lige get in the way? lol.

Anywho again, must focus on this class

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Hugs
Kadianzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Woosah!

2009-09-23T09:54:00.000-07:00

So, I am finally back in the hole - erm I mean Univeristy, and already the school managed to mess with me. I don't know I think they get off on driving me insane but after three weeks of fighting with them I am finally getting my money back! Well they screwed up on my meal plan and blah blah frigging blah. So it took them one click to mess up everything and three bloody weeks to fix it. *woosaaaah* Am good (a little Martin Lawrence: Bad Boys reference there).

So after they fixed all that, I had to use all my party money to buy my books until I can get money from them. Can you tell me how long it takes to write a cheque have it signed and I pick it up. Man--red tape is EVERYWHERE! So I told them I wanted the money and I have to wait a week to get it. So I finally bought all my books at RIDICULOUSLY expensive prices! One was gonna cost me $150 in the bookstore. I bought it on Amazon, paid for shipping and handling, paid for it to get t me in three days and didn't spend over $100! So see? They are expensive for no reason which pissed me off but guess what? I graduate soon! (God willing I get through this English class! It's driving me absolutely bonkers!).

One of my baby sister's birthday is coming up September 28 and she'll be hitting the big 21! Can you believe? I have a baby sister that's 21! OMG! *gasp and pulls hair out* So I have to buy her something absolutely smashing. Don't know what it will be yet though. I have until Saturday to figure it out, then I have to ship it to her which will take a while--oopsie I guess I should have planned this better huh...wow...but she will get it soon, even if I have to express mail it to her. Wow, I have a sister that's turning 21....

Anyways, I found this new radio station (106.7-the beat of Detroit) that comes outta Detroit that's playing 10 000 songs in a row without commercials! You read that right, 10 000, it wasn't a typo. I am listening to see if they could actually do it because they would have to play at least 130 songs a day for at least eighty days (took radio broadcasting in college so the math was fairly simple). So far they've been doing well. They've been playing songs from the sixties all the way up today and it's been one big party in my room since I found it. I've been 'shaking it like a polaroid picture' every time I'm in my room lol. But seriously, I've heard songs I haven't heard in a while like "Creep" by TLC, (it was greate to hear Left Eye Rap again since she died a few years ago), Let Me Love You Down, Tell Me What You Want Me To Do, Oh Sheila, Who Is It? ---a whole slew of oldies that I've been in love with even though most of them were released beforeI was even a sperm lol. After listening to this station I really need to update my jam box on the side of my page.

Anyways, I am at school, trying to keep up with reading, writing, social life, job hunting for once I graduate, travel prices and all that good stuff...but I should probably get to some editing lmao.

*sings Love Game by Lady Gaga*

Kadian

Blah Blah Blah

2009-09-04T22:59:00.000-07:00

So, Michael Jackson has been finally laid to rest. I mean that has got to be a record since the man died weeks ago. I don't know, I guess things works differently for celebrities, right? Anyways it's that time of year again and I am getting ready to head back to school. Actually I head down on Sunday but I procrastinated again and now I am packing at the last minute. My dad hasn't started fussing over me yet which is a good thing - for now lol. I think he gets nervous when I'm supposed to leave.

So far I have two suitcases packed plus four extra bags. One with kitchen stuff, one with shower and cleaning stuff, another with extra knick knacks like my favorite romance novels, star trek novels and general fiction novels plus my alarm clock - I think its about time I stop using my cell phone as my alarm clock since sometimes it doesn't even go off *sigh*. I need a new phone but I am biting the bullet and waiting until I graduate in April *cringes*. I am praying the phone stays alive till then.

I got a release date for A Lover's Wish - December 1, 2009. Look out for a contest for that and for xmas. I still haven't decided if I'm going to write an xmas story but I supposed if I am going to make a decision it has to be in the next few weeks. Probably after I get settled in classes. But from the looks of my book list I'd say I wont be settling much. I have eight books for one class *rips hair out* it's gonna be stressed to the max but I look at the bright side, perhaps I'll learn enough HTML in that class along with CSS to make my own websites sizzle right? I was hoping my drama class would save me but it doesn't look that easy either...I think I need a miracle lol.

Anyways, back to packing I go.

with love,
Kadian

New Contract - updates

2009-08-19T22:45:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!
I am warning you now, this Blog may not make much sense as it is WAY past my bed time and I should be sleeping but I am too excited about this. I have a new contract for my story A Lover's Wish. It will be coming December 1, 2009 to Devine Destinies. This is the beautiful cover *points to the left* that Martine Jardin made for me. Isn't it lovely?

My website is updated, completely overhauled so please stop by and let me know what you think. I am currently hard at work researching my next story which will be titled "All the Wild Things." I figured its about time I write another cowboy story under my real name and not Kendra right?

Well, it's almost Christmas but I dont know if I am going to be writing a Christmas story this year. Well I didn't write one last year. Christmas stories are so much harder to write because you actually have to keep track of the days in the story which is kind of hard - I guess am ADD that way. Anyways, my eyes are closing so I think I should at least try to get some sleep before I have to wake up and pack. I have be procrastinating again. It's about that time when I have to head back to university *Falls to ground in a screaming and kicking tantrum* I don't wanna! Don't make me! *clears throat* well now that is out of my system, please visit Martine and let her know what a lovely job she did on my cover. I am still flailing about it. Anyways, have a lovely night.

*hugs*
Kadian

Remembering the King of Pop

2009-07-07T13:18:00.000-07:00

Hey guys,

So I spent the last little while watching the tribute to Michael Jackson and because this blog is going to be about him and his life I will try and refrain from swearing - that would be disrespectful. But you know me, I wont be sugar coating anything either. Here's the deal. There are many that say Michael was a child molester etc but the truth is, each time he was accused of it it went away. I mean if your child was sexually abused would you take a pay off or would you spend your last living breath making sure the bastard gets neutered? There is no amount of money you could pay me to make me not go after you if you did anything to my kid. And the second time he was acquitted so now that the man is dead shut up about it. This is like kicking someone when they're down and can't protect or defend themselves and that makes you a coward.

Controversy aside, Michael Jackson has left a legacy. You can say whatever you want to say about him but his music was his way of changing the world. He had lyrics that could make you stand up and take notice and he DARED you to be a better person. Don't know what am talking about? God bless youtube and search engines! Look up "Earth Song," "Man in the Mirror," "Gone too soon", "Have you seen my childhood" "Black or white" I could go on and on but if you don't know all those and the others then you're not a true MJ fan, simple as that.

His music taught us that we can love outside of our culture because if god didn't want us to mix he wouldn't have created us all. He taught us that we can be the change we want in the world. He taught us that if we don't want to save the planet for ourselves, do it for our children and grand children, he taught us that to have children and to raise them we have to think like children sometimes. He taught us that man doesn't have to stand straight, they can lean like a smooth crimminal, glide across the dance floor and spin without fear. He taught us how to save ourselves from the terror of the night by gaining the soul for getting down. He asked us to let loose and rock with him all night. He asked us to remember the time we fell in love and to be invincible. He taught us that a little booty call never hurt any one (keep it in the closet) and that Suzie aint your friend. He taught us to be bad and to tell those morons who want to pick fights with you to beat it. But most recently he showed us that a man can ask his woman to not let go for his hand, he taught the playas how to keep playing the game by making the wanna-bes feel 'threatened.' And for all those lovers out there, he gave us the perfect words to say to our lovers when we want to make love all night.

The man was a musical genius.

Michael has gloved hand in the music, dance routines and lyrics of every Entertainer that came after him, Usher, Chris Brown, Phillip Chebeb, Lil Wayne, Wayne Brady---the list goes on and on and on... Every dance move he's ever done has been tried to be duplicated - from the body wave to the moon walk. While there will never be another Michael, others are welcomed to try. But the truth is, no one can be him. No one can do what he has done. He has managed to bring the whole world together with music. His videos are cutting edge but if you look at his dancers, they are of all races, colours, cultures.

They say everything happens for a reason - and Michael's death happened for a reason we just don't know what it is yet. But I for one have to say that I am happy that I became a fan. His music has helped me in my writing - his music always puts me in the mood to write because for everthing I want to write (Fight scenes, love scenes, death scenes) Michael Jackson has a song for it.

So now I say Rest in Peace Mr. Jackson. You will never be forgotten.

Michael Jackson - 1958-2009

LONG LIVE THE KING!

How do they make it seem so real?

2009-05-01T00:01:00.000-07:00

Hi, I'm Delilah K. Stephans. Thanks Kadian for this chance to meet all your fans. I appreciate you all stopping by.

Have you ever wondered how an author makes something seem so real? How does a romance writer get it right? Very simple answer… they research. I hear the groans. Yes, research. The same research you did in school for reports but not quite the same. Come on, do you honestly think your professors are going to assign research into some of the topics of Romance novels?

I do a lot of research online. I don’t have the money to travel to all the places I want my characters to go, so I use Google to find out about wherever they are. Say I set a story in New York and want my characters to have a meal at a 24 hour diner. Well, being from the South I’d use Waffle House as my template – but guess what? Research tells me there are only 3 Waffle Houses in New York State and none near where my characters are. Would it make a big difference? Only if someone in New York was reading it. A little more research and I can find something similar in the area. Most restaurants now put their menus online – so I can even pick what they order. But sometimes online research doesn’t reveal the information you need. Say your hero is an Agent, well you need to get out and interview some real life agents. You can outline your plot to them and ask “How would you investigate this?” You may not take all their suggestions – but something will stick in your head and you’ll adjust it to your story.

My current work in progress has BDSM elements. Well that’s something that excites me as a reader and I wanted to try my hand at it, but had no knowledge of the lifestyle. So blushing furiously I ordered a few books on the subject and took an online workshop.

Another book takes place in the Middle Ages – so again I had to order a book – if you’re a writer the Everyday Life series is excellent for that. The information isn’t detailed but gives a nice overview and list other references you can check out. For period clothing, I got this tip from Alexis Morgan, you can find historical paper dolls.

Research for writing isn’t boring – because in this case, you are researching something you are interested in. There are some standards that every writer should have:
· A good dictionary
· A good thesaurus – I recommend Oxford American Writer’s Thesaurus
· The Chicago Manual of Style – it’s the publishing industry standard
· Goal, Motivation and Conflict by Dixon
· A Baby Name book – I have two Character Naming Source Book by Kenyon and The Baby Name Survey Book by Lansky & Sinrod
· The Romance Writer’s Phrase Book
· Passionate Ink: A Guide to Writing Erotic Romance by Angela Knight

You can find out more about me at: www.delilahkstephans.com

Why is Fox even Still on Television?

2009-03-24T08:35:00.000-07:00

Hi all *WARNING THIS IS A RANT ABOUT THE STUPIDITY OF FOX NEWS AND THE POT CALLING THE KETTLE BLACK*

I just realized something, which makes me really have to ask WHY IN THE HELL IS FOX STILL BROADCASING? So the other day, Fox did what they have been doing for years and that is stick their stinking foot in their mouth. And guess what? Bill O'Riley for ONCE had nothing to do with it! Big surprise there! But no big deal. Here's where I have an issue-- when they dis my country, I take STRONG offense. Grey Gutfeld and Doug Benson, you two must be some kind of stupid to think this wouldn't have raised a stink!

Let me get something straight. If you wanted to dis the Canadian government - KNOCK YOURSELF OUT! Because we all know that they are a different kind of stupid - but the military - oh its on!

I could be offensive and dis America too - but why? What would it accomplish? For crying out loud we went into a war with them. Here's a part of what was said by Greg Gutfeld and Comedian Doug Benson had to say

They were spurred by comments from Canada's army chief that the military would need a year's hiatus to regroup and refurbish after its Kandahar mission ends in 2011.

In the Fox News segment, widely accessed on the Internet, Gutfeld said the Canadian military "wants to take a breather to do some yoga, paint landscapes, run on the beach in gorgeous white capri pants."

"Isn't this the perfect time to invade this ridiculous country?" he said. "They have no army."

That opening crack from Gutfeld prompted his comedian guest, Benson, to chime in: "I didn't even know that they were in the war," he said.

"I thought that's where you go if you don't want to fight - go chill in Canada. I guess that'll be their tourism selling point: We're not in the war for a year. So come on by while we nap."

For this once, Fox, I am going to stoop to your disgusting, pathetic low and show you just how stupid you are (I mean your announcers and those who agreed to put these crack-pots on television). You talk crap about us? Might I point something out - For crying out loud! We went into Afghanistan to have YOUR country's ass for eight years because YOUR country was dumb enough to think someone would bomb a country then remain in the same hiding spot! We went there to clean up YOUR country's mess. YOUR country dropped a bomb killing some of OUR men then had the GALL to call it FRIENDLY FIRE! and then went on to go "I didn't even know they were in the war!" How DARE you? HOW DARE YOU! And invade us? Invade us? Are you serious? What are you in the third grade again? Even third graders wouldn't have pulled that one out.

Want to talk dumb? Well let me see - YOUR country can't go to some countries in the world right now, us Canadians can go anywhere we want. YOUR country sent a seven year old boy back to a communist country rather than keeping him in your country to save his life, your country tossed a kid in a prison without a trail for suspected terrorism, your country went in and bombed not one, but TWO third world countries, Your country voted for the same moron TWICE in a row that has managed to do more damange to the whole country in two terms than Nixon could have EVER managed to do - EVER!

What in the hell is Fox's problem? This is taking Freedom of speech and Freedom of the press to a new low. I mean how DARE you try to minimize the roll Canadian troops have been playing in Afghanistan? How dare you minimize the Canadian Troops' work? I mean frigging hell, is this payback for declining to go into Iraq? And you thought Canada was where people go when you don't wanna fight? Are you kidding me? Dude, after all that has happened over the last, I don't know, ten years, you still believe that President Bush was right in boming TWO THIRD WORLD COUNTRIES? Well erm *Dances on table* Helloooo!! DUMBASS!!! WE WERE RIGHT! Show me the WMDs that your country went in for...oh that's right - THERE ARE'T ANY! Show me Osama Bin Ladin that they caught---OH WAIT! YOU HAVEN'T!!

And Greg said that it was a funny way to make fun of the news? Dude, you need to watch John Stewart because even when he made fun of Canada he did it in a way that had even the Canadians laughing and he didn't have to completely take away the honour of those Canadian troops that have been killed in order to do it.

Look, I am happy Canada doesn't have a big army. You know why? Because we have't gone out of our way to piss off the entire world and need a huge army to protect ourselves. We have been civil to people, welcoming and we celebrate people - oh here's a concept, Greg Gutfield, you should try it sometime.

And Doug Benson - boy you is some kinda of stupid (sorry about the ghetto talk right there but it called for it). You're going to dis a country right before going there for a paid gig? Boy haven't your parents ever told you not to bite the hand that feeds you?

Then he's (Greg) is going to say he was sorry - Sorry? Your ass is only sorry because you got called out on your stupidity! You're not sorry- you are just sorry because you got caught!
And oh, for those people who have commented saying that "Canadians are cowards" erm - dude, think about it. Only a Coward would bomb two helpless countries who can't fight back. That's a bully tactic. So who's the coward now? And why am I arguing with you idiots? I mean for crying out loud you're the same people that think Siesta is a mexican word! *rubs temples*

And for the record, we need a break because only morons wouldn't admit fatigue after a Frigging EIGHT YEAR WAR! ooh I'm sorry we show that we're human and our bodies break down like a regular human body would after eight years of heavy wear and tear! What are you brain dead?
The bottom line is, Canadian's have a more suffisticated form of comedy that we get. We don't have to depend on shock tactics to get laughs. That's why a Canadian created Saturday night live and you didn't! That's why one of our Comedy show was retired and not discontinued. And what Greg and Doug did was disgusting, irritating and pathetic. And yes, I too will be boycotting their advertisers for that show - once I find out what they were.

I'm sorry I'm not normally this snide or crabby or mean when it comes to American/Canadian relationship. I am normally the tolerant one but this seriously pissed me off because a lot of good Canadian soldiers are being killed in this war and these upstarts are trying to minimize that. I will NOt tolerate such stupidity. They are dead and can't talk for themselves to it is left to us to speak for them. *Shakes head* Greg and Doug, you two are the two most ungrateful bastards I've ever have the displeasure of hearing about and and I pray that when the Canadian contract is finished in 2011, they withdraw our troops because helping America seems to always come back to bite us in the ass.

*breathes*
Kadian Tracey

When Music was Actually Music

2009-03-21T22:38:00.000-07:00

Hey All,

So tonight, I looked up Rick Astley because - why did I do that? I can't...oh right. I was watching an episode of Family Guy and they were saying Rick was gay. You know Rick Astley - Bristish singer from the eighties with that sexy deep voice most of us were consumed to. He had hits like Cry for Help, Hold Me In Your Arms, Never Gonna Give Up, and a slew of other hits. Recently he had a song titled Sleepin, which I never knew because I thought he stopped singing years ago. But this man is a talent. He can play so many musical instruments thatI lost count.

Anyways, I googled him, just to see if he was really gay - I mean it isnt a big deal but I love to research things before I start saying it was true - a naughty little habit my father has instilled in me - I love it. Anyways, turns out, he is NOT gay. It got me thinking though. Why is it, in today's society if you're in the entertainment industry, and you don't smoke, do drugs, dress like a thug and sing songs that respects woman you are automatically gay? Why is that human beings, as logical, thinking creatures, resort to homophonia when they see something in someone that they do not like?

Rick Astley sang music - remember that? The thing that has notes, and tunes, and taught a lessons or make you feel something? Not the crap they have today. Real music, NOT "move bitch get out the way" or "I like the way you shake it right therrr" I mean what the hell is therrr? ENGLISH! Does no one know what that is anymore?

I am twenty five years old and I LOVE real music. I love Rick Astley, Earth Wind and Fire, Simply Red, Colin James, Corey Hart, Old school Michael Jackson - Remember when they used to do music? Oh my, old skool jams makes me feel things. They make me feel in love, happy, sad, angry, exhilerated, relax - REAL music illicit feelings.

When did "To the sweat drip from my balls" become something that was musically acceptable? When did playing the same three notes for all your songs become creative and talented? When did using a sync to change your voice become acceptable? The sync is that stupid machine that T-Pain and a crap load of artists are using these days to cover their lack of actual talent.

Singers today need to look back and see how REAL singers dressed, carried themselves, spoke, acted etc. They need to stop singing about a woman's ass and start singing about the woman's heart. I am so sick and tired of hearing my friends laugh at me because I would rather listen to Se7en than Yung Buck or Shade instead of some other crap. I mean sure I listen to some of the music they have today but I love every kind of music you can think of. I especially love music from the eighties and before I was born because lets face it, good music is slowly going extinct.

Love you guys,
Kadian

Being you is the bravest thing you can ever be...

2009-03-13T13:19:00.000-07:00

So, as you all know I am in LOVE with asian music - music in general. But today I saw something that just made me sick. So one of my favorite Korean pop singer is named Se7en (pronounced 7). He is an amazing talent, beautiful voice, amazing dancer. His song "La La LA" made me cry even before I knew what the the song was truly about. Anways he is making his American debut. When I heard this I remember thinking "FINALLY!" others will be able to see how absolutely beautiful this man is. His english song is titled "Girls" and it features Lil Kim and was produced by Dark Child (you know him, he's worked on songs for Toni Braxton, Michael Jackson, Brandy, the Spice Girls, Backstreet Boys...and the list goes ON). Anyways if you're a singer trying to get into the biz, other than Jazzy Pha and Timbaland, the next best producer to have on your album is Dark Child.

Anyways, I digress. The thing that got me, was the fact that normally Lil Kim looks like herself. She dresses sexy, out there but most importantly she looks like a black woman - a proud one. In this video, someone painted her. Her make up was too light for her skin colour, her eyes were drawn in to look Asian and she just looked strange. I mean I am not saying they are trying to make her look Asian but holy damn! They are professional, you're telling me that they couldn't find make-up to fit her skin? They have been finding the right shades for years and all of a sudden she looked like a drawn up barbie? Now I'm not blaming Se7en for any of this and it could be the lighting on the set and all that because I've done some filming etc for Performance classes but its just unnerving. I keep remembering when I was younger there used to bet hese creams that they told would make our skin lighter...

I don't understand it. I mean she doesn't need an Asian singer to make her name big - she's huge! I mean Lil Kim is HUGE! Especially after her year in jail for not ratting on her friends. So explain to me why, some singers/actors/celebrities are trying to change their skin colour? In today's day and age you have to be proud of who you are because frankly if you cant love yourself enough to be proud of who you are, how in the hell are you going to love someone else?

Please, sit your children down, *especially daughters* and make them see that its not the end of the world to have darker skin. Tell them its a beautiful thing...keep them away from these creams etc. They are dangerous.

I'm not trying to be a little shit starter, I'm just sayin'.

Hugs,
Kadian

BROKEN WINGS - Now Available!

2009-01-11T09:01:00.000-08:00

Hello again!

Welcome! I am excited to announce that my novel BROKEN WINGS is now available at my lulu store and over at Red Eclipse Writers! The guys at Red Eclipse is offering a discount if you buy it from them (shh its a secret lol). Now I have to promote like mad! If you know of anywhere that I can get a review let me know. There arent many places for AA - sweet romance stuff. Anywho have to go back to writing! *hugs*

Kadian

A Peek-a-Boo Into "Broken Wings" & Trailer

2009-01-06T07:46:00.000-08:00

Title: Broken Wings
Author: Kadian Tracey
Length: Full Novel
Status: Coming Soon
Genre: Sweet Romance, Rubenesque (BBW), African American

Blurb:
When Monique Winston’s world collapsed with the death of her mother she knows now that she has to stand on her own two feet. But before her mother left this world, she taught Monique two important things. One, Monique should Never trust a black man. Two, Monique will never be good enough for any man. And if Devaughn Cole think he’s just going to waltz in and murky her life more he has another thing coming.
Devaughn Cole is laid back, handsome and stinking rich. He is the latest brotha to leave the hood and make it big in the music industry. Afraid of loosing who he was, he returned to the hood to build a house. After his latest tour, he just wants to go home and relax. But when he meets Monique Winston, he finds that there's more to this full figured beauty than meets the eyes but she is broken, mind, body and soul.

Will he be able to fight her demon past? Or will she open up herself to a whole new world of possibilities.

**EXCERPT**

Thump. Thump.

What was that sound? It was a horrible sound; one could only guess but it sounded like what you would hear if the world was ending.

The little girl glanced around trying to find out what the sound was and when she realised the source of the noise;, she tensed in fear.

The sound of Monique’s heart was thumping in her ears was only trumped by the thundering storm outside. She hated and feared storms for they meant only one thing to her; trouble. It always rained when something bad was going to happen and as she stood there staring at the broken glass she knew for sure something bad was about to happen. The sound her heart made as it raced was ungodly and deafening to her causing her to whimper in pain. It wasn’t the kind of hurt that came from a stubbed toe or a fall; but the kind of pain you got when your heart was breaking. It was the worse kind of pain for any human being, especially a child.

What would her mother do this time? Would Monique be beaten? Would her mother force her to stand in the tub filled with iced water on one leg? What would be her punishment? The last time she got the bathtub punishment she had fallen and took her head off the side of the tub.
Monique knew that no matter what her punishment was, she may just as well be dead for it would be horrible. It would be a kind of punishment that no one else could think of but the mind of a diabolically evil being.

It was that simple because she knew her mother would not stand for the fact that Monique had been clumsy. It wasn’t as if the cup held any sentimental values but that had never stopped Monique’s mother from torturing her before. As a matter of fact, nothing did.
It wasn’t that Monique was a clumsy child, but the storm had startled her. The thunder and the lightening had made the child jumpy.

Other ten year olds were out, playing or doing homework while listening to music, but not this ten year old. Instead of hanging out at school with other children or rushing to catch the school bus home, Monique had to rush home from school to do all the chores her mother should have done during the day. Her mother hadn’t signed her up for the school bus so she had to run home; it was a two hour trip. Monique had to make sure the dishes were clean, the house was clean and the laundry done and folded. That meant, she rarely had time for homework because by the time she had done all that work, her little body was too tired to do much of anything else other than sleep. Monique’s grades were slipping dangerously to failing but her mother hadn’t cared. The teachers had sent letter after letter home but after awhile of watching her mother chuck them into the garbage, Monique had stopped giving them to her. Monique would sneak home and dig a hole behind her house to bury the letters in.

Sometimes, the woman would wake Monique up in the middle of the night and order the child to go downstairs and get her some milk. Like a good girl, Monique obeyed even though she was afraid of the dark.

Monique was forced to grow up really fast with the fury of a woman scorned on her back all the time.

Maybe she wouldn’t hear the crash that was loud enough to wake the dead. Maybe her mother was sleeping and thought she had been dreaming.

Maybe. Maybe. Maybe.

“What’s that sound?” mother snapped and the Monique heard footsteps rushing towards the kitchen. Her eyes darted around the room as she wondered why she couldn’t move. She wanted to move; she had to move. Normally she would scramble to clean it up but not that evening. She was scared to the spot she was standing on. Monique begged her feet to corporate.

Move it girl! Danger! Danger Monique Winston! Go!

Run!

Her mind yelled at her over and over.

No luck.

“You broke another one!” her mother snapped rushing forward to grab the ten year old girl painfully by the arm. Monique wanted to scream that she had been good and hadn’t broken anything in a really long time but her mind wouldn’t let her mouth speak. Even when her mouth opened, no sound left her lips and Monique panicked.

“What am I going to have to do to let you be more careful?” her mother continued, completely oblivious to the little girl’s fear and pain. “You are a clumsy good-for-nothing! You will never amount to anything!”

Monique felt her mother yanking her backwards and a yelp finally left the girl’s mouth. Even though she didn’t know where her mother was taking her she did know one thing. Where ever it was, she didn’t want to go. She would rather die than go. Hell would be preferable to where ever it was that her mother was taking her; she knew that all too well. Her feet were dragging on the ground as her free hand tried to grab a hold of the door-frame. Success! Monique grabbed on and held on for dear life.

But her mother had other plans. The woman smacked Monique hard across the face and Monique let go to grab her face. That allowed her mother to continue hauling her from the kitchen. Her face stung as if felt as though someone had tossed hot water into her face. The little rubbed the sting furiously as she sobbed and screamed in fear trying to get rid of the pain but it only caused the skin to grow hot and hurt more.

Then, as if she hadn’t suffered enough, she felt her feet leave the ground. The next thing she knew, Monique felt herself flying across the room and the shocked child began flailing. She began reaching for a doorframe, a chair, a table, a prayer, anything. She needed something to stop her flight and without pain. But she wasn’t that lucky. With nothing to grab onto, she flew through the air like a rag doll going full speed and out of control. As though she was in a movie, going in slow motion or in a science experiment where someone had cruelly stopped time, a million thoughts flashed through Monique’s mind. A thought, such as all she had to do was wake up before the pain set it and it would never have happened. But she wasn’t dreaming and that point was stressed when she slammed into the far wall. She heard things falling but couldn’t care for her small body was riddled with pain.

But it didn’t end there. The first pain came from hitting the wall. She knew at that moment how a baseball felt; going full speed one way then all of a sudden something hard and fast stopped it only to hurl it into the opposite direction.

The second pain to come was the worse of all and it came from bouncing off the wall, sailing through the air once more and hitting the ground hard. Her mind couldn’t form a single thought for she was too busy curling up into a ball and letting the darkness crowd in on her. When she hit the ground she had heard the snapping sound and knew instantly that she had broken her ribs again.

What would her excuse be this time?

****
It was a few years later, and Monique had managed to meet one friend. Thunder and lightening rolled over the small area of space like a horror movie.
Something bad had happened.

The rain poured down over the grave-yard as the people in black huddled in a tight formation with their heads bowed. They were whispering the “our father” prayer in unison, signalling the end of the funeral service for fifteen year old child. Osaka was only fifteen why was she dead? Then, as though nothing had happened, they all walked off leaving Monique standing there wrapped in a blanket of confusion and bitterness. Osaka was all Monique had. Tears flowed down her face to mingle with the rain water dripping from her face as she fell to her knees. With the water soaking through to her skin, she dropped the red rose in her hand and sobbed, “you weren’t supposed to die,” she whispered.

“How could you leave me?” she questioned angrily. “How could you leave me alone with her? You promised! You were all I had left and now you’re gone. What am I supposed to do in this world without you? How am I supposed to be strong and carry on without you? Would you listen to me? I sound like a bloody Michael Bolton song... Why?”

Monique stopped speaking to listen for the answers to her questions but as she sat there shaking in her cold and anger, no one answered any of her questions. The silence only infuriated her more. She slammed her closed fist down into the mud.

“Damn it! Answer me! Why in the hell won’t you answer me?”

But the only answer that came back to her was her voice echoing off the trees and tombstones around her. “I hate you! Do you hear me! I hate you!”

Rising from the ground, she took off running for the front gates of the grave-yard. Dashing pass the other people who had stopped to speak to each other, she rushed across the street with cars skidding to a stop to avoid hitting her and a chain reaction crash but she couldn’t pay then any attention. All she knew was that she had to get out of there or else she would surely die. She would not be able to breathe again and die.

Her short life so far had been filled with hate, carnage and abuse.

“I wish you were dead,” her mother had yelled on many occasions. “I wish I had killed you before I popped you out.”

She was nine the first time her mother had told her that. Monique had dodged the plate that her mother proceeded to toss at her, with practised skill and walked from the room sobbing. Her self esteem had been shot to hell by that woman but still she loved her. She was Monique’s mother. That night she had sobbed all night and the next morning her eyes were red and puffy as she rushed out for school without breakfast. Her mother had forced Monique to fend for herself for as long as Monique could remember.

Her body slammed into something and she hit the ground. Looking up she noticed that she had crashed into a fence. She didn’t care; she stood up and began beating her hand into it for she never thought her life could have gotten any worse than it already was. How could it be?
But on the day she had met Osaka, Monique had managed to get some money from her mother and darted into a local convenience store to buy some instant noodles. She didn’t have enough money and that was where she had met Osaka. Osaka had then rushed to her mother, asked for money and came back to give it to Monique. Osaka was thirteen at the time and lived just a few doors down from Monique. The two became fast friends.

Stumbling to her feet again after sliding to her stomach in the mud, Monique turned down the street that her house was on and when she was finally inside, she slammed the door behind her before sliding to the ground to bury her face into her mud covered hands.

“Well look at you,” her mother mocked but Monique was not in the mood to be belittled then. She got up and tried to walk by her mother. The woman grabbed Monique by the back of the neck and yanked backwards. Monique slammed into the ground again but she didn’t cry. At that moment, she was too numb to care. Her mother had an asinine grin on her face and Monique knew it then; the woman was sent to earth to torture her.

As she sat there trying to make her teenage body feel again, she thought about ending it all. But a part of her thought against it for it was like Monique was a glutton for punishment. She wanted to stick around to see how much worse her life would get. That was the downside of her life, but believe it or not, that would be a walk in the park comparing to what was coming. For right then, the higher beings were at it again. Getting drunk over port and meddling in her happily ever after. What happily ever after? Monique Winston was their toy, their puppet and in another life she must have done something horribly unforgiveable and would pay with this life.

She was only twelve.

Kadian Tracey is Back

2009-01-04T22:34:00.000-08:00

Hello and thank you for stopping by! I am Kadian Tracey and I feel that because it is a new year I need to rebrand myself. This year, I am an author that writes a little bit of everything. I write sweet romance that is not your typical romance, romance with a slight human twist to it. I think that's the best way to explain what I write. My first tale to come from the brand new me, is "Broken Wings." The genre is African American, Sweet, Rubenesque (BBW) and the list goes on. If you are looking for torrid sex etc, my work is not the one for you. If you're looking for sweet romance with a story wrapped around it, then by all means.

I have taken great pains to write "Broken Wings." I have drawn from my life and lives around me to make these characters are rich and different as possible. The cover was done by me, I loved these two pictures together.

Also on my list is "The Old Tree Behind Whistlelane Manor." This story is about a little girl (ten years old) who has to save a magical world she knows nothing about. This story is for children 8-11 - mostly girls. It is my first attempt to write a children's story and I am writing it with my little niece in mind. She read Black Beauty when she was 6 so she's a very intelligent girl. The story is coming along nicely and I am focusing on it right now, in between classes and lectures (ugh!).

Anyways, I have an early morning and it is WAY past my bedtime, so blog more later.

Hugs,

Kadian Tracey

When Doves Cry...

The Year in Review!

The hell is going on?

New Cover - CRUISE WITH ME!

Destiny's Cowboy is BACK!

Who's Watching You? See No Evil is HERE!

R.I.P Sgt Ryan Russell

See No Evil Trailer

The Year so Far...

Home for Christmas - NEW RELEASE

DANCE WITH ME

SHADOWCAT is on the prowl!!

Viva Los Mineros! Viva Chile!

Dance With Me -- *Flails*

My New Cover!!

Some of My Favorite Movie Quotes

I Use My Wicked Cool Blog Skills for Good!

My beautiful cover!!

Evil has a face!

New Contracts, Coming soon's and Writing

Laila, My Love is Here

In Respects to OPP Officer Vu Pham

Happy Day--erm Sunshine Day

Guest Blogger - Emma Lai

New Contract!!

GOLD CANADA GOLD!

Boy how time flies!

Inappropriate Ring Tones and more

A LOVER'S WISH ---IS HERE!!

It's that time of year again!

Remember when...

Updates, Releases Etc

You know what really grinds my gears?

Ugh Drama & News

Let the madness begin!

A LOVER'S WISH Contest!

Please Vote for me!

R.I.P Auntie Neetie

Dove's "Broken Wings"

This Dove is in PAIN!

I got new model!

Woosah!

Blah Blah Blah

New Contract - updates

Remembering the King of Pop

How do they make it seem so real?

Why is Fox even Still on Television?

When Music was Actually Music

Being you is the bravest thing you can ever be...

BROKEN WINGS - Now Available!

A Peek-a-Boo Into "Broken Wings" & Trailer

Kadian Tracey is Back

Dance With Me -- Flails